What the fuck am I saying?

I’ve never felt like this before; empty and broken, torn apart and hollow. It’s not even a reaction to something negative. It’s all because of love. Love has brought me here and love will continue to bring me here until I can grab it by the balls and put it in its place.
*scrambled thoughts
There’s so many things that I want from this right now, things that I wish were facts. I wish I could see into the future and know that I’m not wasting my time. I don’t want to lose what I have; I only want to gain more. I have never wanted anything or anyone so badly in my entire life.
People say “You’re only 17. You don’t know what love is!” Oh really? It’s a pretty unmistakable feeling… Stickin’ out there like a sore thumb and all.
I could just go on and on –

*abrupt ending

I Have A Dream

Last night I had a dream.
I can’t tell if it’s wrong or right to be feeling the way I feel under the circumstances, so I’ve basically boiled it down to the awkward transition stage between being a teenager and adulthood. Right now is easily the most confusing/stressful time in my life due to school and graduating, keeping friends and losing them, holding on to bits of nothing to keep me grounded, family, and discovering myself.
I used to think I knew myself pretty well but I’m finding there’s so much more to me than I ever thought there could be. I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place, however the decision is obvious and goes without question.
Last night I had a dream that we kissed.

Bullshyaat

Is it fair to take away good things in life?
To let pain cause burden?
To hand happiness to one
& take it away with out warning.
To be punished for someone elses wrong?
;Dishonesty.
To take away something that doesn't belong to you?
To put shame upon a person,
When you've committed the same sin?

I honestly don't know where this is going..
I'm quite rattled.

Turning over a new leaf

So I spent 10 minutes crying. I'm over it.
Moved on. I'm done.
That is all..

Haters&Heart Breakers

I hate making decisions for my future. I like living in the moment. I hate people who try to make my decisions for me. You don't know me or what I want. Don't fake your shit to me or you'll look like a piece of shit. Keep true to your word and don't be pushy. You want me to feel the same as you? Give me some respect.

The saying "actions speak louder than words" isn't always correct. Only when it works in ones favour. Listen to what I want and I'll pay mind to yours. Pay attention to the small things. You don't know anything so stop acting like a know-it-all. You sure as hell ain't top shit so shut your mouth.

Nothing is a joke. This is life and everything is real. Take me seriously and I'll consider falling for you. Your words don't mean anything. Show me something I can believe. Thats in favour to me.

All talk..

R.I.P Molly

So on Tuesday my mum had to put my cat down.
She had a swollen belly and a liver problem.
We didn't know until we brought her into the vets
but by the time we brough her, it was too late to fix.
Basicly, my mum had the decision to either let her live and suffer or put her down while she was under anestesia.
I've never cried so much in my life.

Ps. The picture of the cat isn't actually my cat, just the same breed. I can't find any pictures on my computer of her.